Love scared her. It completely destroyed her, devoured her whole, leaving her breathless.
Made her weak in the eyes of it but it gave her unrealistic strength when she wanted to fight for it.
Love indeed scared her, being in love that held her a prisoner, sometimes forever.
She can be loved.
But she doesn't want you to love her. Don't get her wrong. Oh!.. she loved to be desired. It was love, it disgusted her. Disgusted her to see you vulnerable. To be vulnerable. It scared her.
Love scared her. Exposing herself to you? She cannot handle it. She didn't want to be naked and transparent. Vulnerable? That just wasn't her. She was so used to being in control. She didn't want to lose herself completely and totally into you.
Love? she did not know how to handle it. She shut you out completely whenever you even showed the slightest hint of it,closed the door, dead bolted it, locked it, and hid away in a deep dark corner of her heart.
You can't see her, feel her, touch her or hurt her anymore.
This feeling, so intense but she protects herself, at least that's what she think she's doing.
She tried, she wanted to love you but she don't want you to love her. She doesn't trust herself. She found it hard to believe someone loved her unconditionally.She needed your love but she didn't want you to love her. She was afraid to accept your love.
A glimmer of light wanting to radiate and flash out. It scared her.
